The anniversary today of the Pike River Mine disaster has brought to the surface some raw emotions for families.
Memorial services were being held on the West Coast to mark the day eight years ago that 29 men went to work and did not return.
A private service for family was due to be held at the mine's portal at 3.44pm, the exact time the explosion occurred.
Today Sonya Rockhouse who lost her son Ben, said eight years on, she still cried for the death of her son nearly every day.
"It's really sad because I'm starting to forget what his voice sounded like and there is some footage of him talking, some audio footage, and it would have been the last thing he said before the explosion and I haven't been able to bring myself to listen to it yet."
She said the battle her and the other families had fought to re-enter the mine hadn't just been for their men but for all 29 that died that day.