Wallabies halfback Will Genia says he is "sick and tired of losing" to the All Blacks.
In 24 trans-Tasman encounters, Genia has only finished a winner three times and the 30-year-old admits he's fed up with losing to the 2011 and 2015 world champions.
In an interview in Tokyo ahead of the Australia and All Blacks clash, Genia laid bare the despair of a decade of Bledisloe Cup beatings as he eyes one last crack at the All Blacks before next year's Rugby World Cup.
"You get sick and tired of losing to them, but you also love playing them," Genia said, insisting the repeated poundings had left no psychological scarring.
"For me, you've lost, you park it and I'm like 'you get to play the All Blacks again'.
"That's a privilege because I love playing the best so you can't get hung up completely on the 'we lost and [the] disappointment'.
"You go through a phase where 'I'm sick of this, you're over it, and you want to get that win'.
"I'm probably at a point where I appreciate every opportunity more than I ever have before playing against the best team in the world."
Nine years after featuring in the Wallabies' historic clash with the All Blacks in Tokyo, Genia is back in the Japanese capital for Saturday's return bout in neighbouring Yokohama.
The veteran halfback and champion flanker David Pocock are Australia's only two survivors from that match - which the All Blacks won 32-19 after trailing 16-13 at halftime.
"We were embarking on my first spring tour. I remember getting the opportunity to play against the All Blacks and, in a neutral environment and in such a great city as a 21-year-old, it was an amazing experience," Genia said.
"To be back here nine years later is pretty incredible as well."
There is a downside, though, of Genia's enduring excellence: no one in Michael Cheika's side has suffered more heartache at the hands of the All Blacks than the 92-Test stalwart.
Although it's been a largely disappointing 2018 so far for the Wallabies, Genia said the side's record-breaking last-start comeback win over Argentina had lifted spirits in the camp.
Apart from a trip to Tokyo Disneyland on the squad's designated Wednesday off, Genia insisted the Wallabies were in Japan very much for business, not pleasure.
"Being in such an amazing city you can get lost in getting out and about, wanting to see things, and lose your focus on why we're here," he said.
"It's been about narrowing our concentration on what's important, which is the day to day, and then realising we're here to play a game of footy and win, not to take in the sights and sounds of the place."